The Duchess Digest: The Warrior, the Monk and the Mirror.

Ebb and FlowI often feel it’s fitting that I live near the ocean. My life seems to surge and recede in waves. After several weeks of work and not much else I had a surge of experiences over the weekend. Saturday I attended my very first Reiki healing session. I’d wanted to see a healer for a while but was searching for someone “normal” (I use that word totally subjectively). I felt it was important, especially since I’m new to alternative healing, slightly skeptical and certainly cynical, to go with someone I felt comfortable around. No crystal balls. No flashing neon signs in the window. The session was wonderful and the after effect was a feeling of peace and calm for the remainder of my day.

The Reiki alone was an article. But I continued to surf my weekend wave of inquiry. I went to the Agape Center Sunday morning with a girlfriend and met with my Manifestation Group on Sunday night. I also had a session with an Indian palmist. The art and science of palm reading has been passed down through this man’s family for generations. He learned from his father and now was teaching his niece back in India. My reading and discussion with him lasted for a little over an hour. He shared many fascinating insights about me and my life. I was mesmerized by the accuracy and by the new possibilities he saw for me. He left me with three mantras and a blessing for what I needed, which he said was “to move from incomplete to whole, to release all the old energy and begin like new, and for the impossible to be manifest as possible.” Afterward I felt motivated, inspired, and ready for action.

Then came Monday . . . and all hell broke loose. I thought the experience was powerful, but I had no idea just how powerful and fast acting it would move. At first I didn’t think too much of it. But now, on Friday, I can look back at the five days that have passed and I can see the dramatic purging of all the old. I’ll spare you the details, but suffice it to say it’s been pretty brutal.

However, the silver lining here is that if it worked that fast and powerfully for cleaning out all the old energy in my life (no matter how painful the process seemed) that means the new energy is coming too. One thing he said was that I have a very strong warrior spirit, to inspire, to be a catalyst for change. He also said that I have an almost equally powerful monk spirit, prone to study, withdrawal, and isolation. He said the monk had become too dominant and that I needed to let the warrior speak up again. He told me, “I don’t want you to live life. I want you to dance through life. It’s a celebration.” That is the part that’s left the strongest impression on me. That and to take a look in the mirror. I need to see the prophecy, potential and beauty in my own reflection that he saw sitting across from him at the table. I have to remember who I really am.

—Jill Brown

Jill Brown - Duchess GuideJill Brown is a Los Angeles, California based Life Coach and Writer. She earned her Bachelors in Humanities and Sociology from USU and is a member of the National Association for Conflict Resolution and the Ladies Who Launch Network. She is the founder of “The Duchess Guide” a website dedicated to helping women become their most fabulous and unique selves. She is an avid outdoor enthusiast, traveler and health nut. When she isn’t writing or working on Duchess, Jill loves spending all her free time with her Labrador – Betty. For more on The Duchess Guide or Jill visit: