http://singlemindedwomen.com/women-relationships/relationships-loss/ Women's Health, Women's Relationships, Single Women's Work Life, Single Mothers, Money, Careers and Travel Sat, 04 Feb 2012 21:23:29 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 http://singlemindedwomen.com/women-relationships/relationships-loss/comment-page-1/#comment-1727 electrastardust Sat, 22 May 2010 12:30:36 +0000 http://singlemindedwomen.com/?p=7767#comment-1727 It's 19 months since I lost my beloved husband, suddenly in his sleep... The grief thing...is like a roller coaster...At first utter shock...then intolerable pain...then anger...then a mad will to live again...and then back flat on my face in deep sadness...waking up to reality... He's not there any more...never will be...am alone...totally and utterly alone...Have to stand up on my feet...yet one tragedy follows another...it never ends...How much can one take?How much pain can one bear?... There are some good days...most of them are flat though...nothing makes me happy...yet I'm calmer now...more centered...However I can not see the light ahead...no future...can only focus on the next step,one breath at a time...one moment at a time...and hope that the pain subsides one day...that life will be worth living without him... It’s 19 months since I lost my beloved husband, suddenly in his sleep…
The grief thing…is like a roller coaster…At first utter shock…then intolerable pain…then anger…then a mad will to live again…and then back flat on my face in deep sadness…waking up to reality…
He’s not there any more…never will be…am alone…totally and utterly alone…Have to stand up on my feet…yet one tragedy follows another…it never ends…How much can one take?How much pain can one bear?…
There are some good days…most of them are flat though…nothing makes me happy…yet I’m calmer now…more centered…However I can not see the light ahead…no future…can only focus on the next step,one breath at a time…one moment at a time…and hope that the pain subsides one day…that life will be worth living without him…

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